Lost In My Fingertips
For a minute there I lost myself... Lost myself in your eyes, in your smile, in your lips... Lost myself in your arms until you left, and then... I lost myself in my fingertips...
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Realistic Love Stories: Buckteeth and Pancakes
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Small Note #12: Update
Friday, December 9, 2011
Afterwards
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Moving On
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Small Note # 11: Staying
The Truth
Monday, November 14, 2011
Losing you
I’m counting up the ways that I can forget,
Looking for a way I can escape,
The reality of losing you
After everything was said.
We were always so different
Never saw eye to eye,
Always bumping heads.
But when it came to loving,
We could forget everything else.
And now, look where we are
In a daze of indifference,
Trying to understand the dizziness
In each other’s weights.
You tongue lost its wetness,
My heart forgot to skip,
My body is not calling yours anymore,
When the night gets cold feet.
My lips are cracking,
On the winter hearts,
And my hair has no need
To be pulled to your arms.
And I know this letters,
Have no meaning for you
But I need to express
The downfall of losing you.
Because as the years go by,
I get crazier and crazier
Seeing you standing around
Like a shadow in the sleepless hunger
Of my tearful eyes…
And I remember your kiss,
Like the lost fountain of my youth
So, tell me how the hell I can forget you
When every memory I have
Reminds me of the nights I spent in your arms?
We’re not us anymore…
But who is?
Can we forget that the passion is gone?
Can we pull our hearts again close?
Can we hug in the night and forget what was lost?
And as you walk out the door,
And tears fall down my collarbone,
I rush my head thinking,
Counting up the ways to forget,
Looking for a way I can escape
The reality of losing you
After everything…
After everything was said,
And right before you ended up dead.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Friend Zone
I was having coffee with a friend the other day and somehow we ended up talking about how relationships begin. At some point he (because it was a HE), turned to me and said that some men use friendship like a hook. If they realize the woman they like is not that interested in them they would simply become her friend. They would listen to her, console her, and just be there for her. Odd part??? It seems to actually work!!! Not all the time, mind you, but it does. Mainly because usually the woman in question starts thinking about how nice and sensitive they are. Then, one night, when some asshole breaks her heart, she suddenly looks at him through her tears and realizes "He's kind of cute!" too.
Then again, entering that space where reality collides with the fiction of "no feelings openly expressed in this area" known by many as the Friend Zone, is a risky gamble. Specially for women. Men have used this technique many times before and about 40% out of those get out with the winning of a lifetime. Women, on the other hand, usually lose. (20 out of 100 kind of odds) And this is mainly my friends and personal experience talking. So it's not simply observation! And the thing is that when you are a woman interested in a man and decide to enter the Friend Zone you do so expecting one result but knowing deep down that it'll probably never work.
Truth is, and this is something my friend as part of the masculine sex in their 20's to 30's confirmed, usually when a man gives you every hint that you two are simply friends he's just not interested! He might like you, or hanging out with you, he might even think you are interesting but somehow, even all that put together isn't enough!
I think that's the greatest difference between men and women when it comes to this subject. At the beginning we might not like you but as we get to know you that can change... Men, on the other hand, usually don't change their opinion. It's easier that way, the relationship would be ruin, I don't find her that attractive, or maybe simply something as simple as bad timing - are all the most common of excuses. But the simple truth is, using a phrase from a book I love by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo, HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!
And that's okay! It is! Because we are all different and simply because I might like you doesn't mean you have to like me. The important thing is to realize he's not into you sooner than later and MOVE ON. (Believe me, you don't want to be around when he dates, sleep or gets serious with some other woman). And you should listen to me on this, because the truth is that I give great advice... I might not follow it myself, but that's just because I'm incredibly stubborn. I refuse to give up until I SERIOUSLY have to. But do not be like me! Save yourself the heartache and move on. 'Who knows? Maybe when he sees I'm interested on someone else..." Don't kid yourself and stop making up excuses. Do it for YOU and no one else but YOU!
Break free of the Friend Zone and look for someone that would rip the space time continuum for you and not the other way around!!!
Monday, July 4, 2011
Small Note #10
-Hope is the dream of a waking man- Aristotle
I just wanted to close the chapter about my illness. I do not have cancer, just in case anyone is ever interested, but I do have something called Endometrial hyperplasia, which I'm treating. I'm also losing some weight. I would like to say I'm happy because I am... kinda; at least, about some stuff but at the moment I feel shitty so... Promise I'll be back soon.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
On Neighbors, Nerves and ... Cleaning?
Ok, I'm all done. I actually cleaned the whole house out of pure boredom. Vacuum going loud at two in the morning, which is why is a good thing I already hate my neighbors and also that the feeling is mutual. At least I hate those I know, which aren't that many because seriously I hate getting to know people, specially people that can come asking for stuff to borrow or to ask dumb intrusive questions.
I have this one neighbor I like to call "the bitch from hell" or BH for short. She is the most intrusive person I know, always asking me questions, gossiping about people I don't even know and spying on whatever I do. Man, that woman's nosy! And she's not even your typically annoying old lady. No, she's actually in her thirties, has a nice job, great house, nice enough husband (he's actually nicer than her maybe because he's kind of chubby), no kids and still she finds time to annoy the hell out of me. Oh, and her husband might be nice but he's in my black list as one of the worst neighbors of all time. He spends his time apparently fixing some bitchy sports car and oiling his motorcycle. For a chubby guy with an office job he's surprisingly hip or so he thinks. He smokes more than me, drinks beer almost every single day and believes himself an amateur mechanic. Men get so weird as they approach their forties... Worst part? He wakes me up with the noise from his motorcycle every single Saturday morning at around 9am! I mean, it's Saturday! Please, dude, let me sleep!!!! The only reason that I like him more than his wife? At least he knows he's annoying. He manned up to it a while ago. Apologized because he knew it must be horrible having to listen to his motorcycle late at night or early in the morning. Doesn't mean he'll stop though so he stayed on the list; which means I get to: kill him with my eyes, close the garage door after looking at him angrily and all but giving him the finger, and ignore him every time I see him.
Another neighbor from hell and my top 3 in the black list: my back door neighbor. This guy wakes me up every Sunday morning and seriously if I wanted to be up at 8am every Sunday I would go to church with my dear mother and I don't, specially since I became old enough to say "I don't want to go", and seriously I don't want to be up Sunday's at 8am unless it's because I still haven't been to bed. Oh, I haven't said how or why he wakes me up. He washes his car every Sunday, that's why, and how, well, he plays his radio very very loudly while he does that little chore. And you would think he could wait until, at least, 11am to wash his car but apparently he goes on a freaking parade every Sunday afternoon because he HAS to do it early in the morning. People and OCD's, I swear. Thing is my window is basically a few steps from his house which means from his car and his damn radio. I've been getting major headaches every Sunday for years now and the worst part is that my body seems to be so use to it; to the point where even in those very rare occasions when he doesn't wake me up, whenever I do wake up I do so with the same damn headache.
Anyways, I know I said I'll be back with a post about well... cancer and stuff but there's been so much sickness lately. I found out some very sad and horrible news about a friend, my mom might need an operation, my father has been diagnose with diabetes, and my step-mother might have a tumor. So, I didn't felt like talking about all the sickness, ironically I just did. Anyways, I'm waiting patiently and simply going to do everything as usual until I do the biopsy and get the results. I'll keep you guys posted on that. I'm still nervous though and I bit fingernails until they hurt and then some but... well, I think I'll try and go to bed now. It's 4: 52am here and this is me signing out. Good night, fill-the-blank-with-your-state!